This isn’t a random photo, he’s my son.
This isn’t a random photo, he’s my son.
Summer has finally arrived. The temperature is starting to get too hot. I didn’t mind the high 70s during the day and I especially didn’t mind the low 60s at night. And now because of the high temperature, my electric bill is going to be high.
When I first started this blog I thought it would be a way for me to get my thoughts in order, like a journal, while going through my cancer treatment. I also thought that I would blog every day or every other day but that wasn’t the case. My last entry was from December and I’m disheartened that I have not kept up with this blog.
My treatment continues and I am making good progress. My body doesn’t hurt as much thank goodness but there was a time when my whole body was hurting every day.
I will try to blog more often. Maybe I will post some of my favorite recipes. Maybe I’ll post some photos.
There are so many things that I still want to do and I continue to hope and pray that I will be able to do some of them.
Toni (aka Meme)
The DH and I were having an argument about which side of the family to spend Christmas with. Of course I want to spend it with my side and he, of course, wants to spend it with his side.
My sister announced an open invite on Thanksgiving. The DH’s sister texted him on Monday. Yes, Monday that just passed, the 18th.
When I asked the kids where they would like to spend Christmas, they told me that they would like to go to my sister’s. When the DH asked them the same question, they told him, “I don’t know.” Arrrrgh.
We will be spending Christmas with my side of the family. Besides, we spent last Christmas with his side of the family.
I bought a cane. Yes, a cane. It’s a folding cane and I try to have it with me all the time. You see about 4 months I started to have severe pain in my left hip and thigh. The pain was so severe I had to take pain meds. Usually my pain threshold is high but not this time. I don’t know if it’s because of the radiation to my left femur or not. Sometimes, I get stiff and experience muscle tightness to the area and walking sometimes helps. I don’t like using the pain because I think it makes me weak. I don’t want to rely on it. I want to be the healthy me before cancer invaded my body. Cancer sucks.
You may be wondering why the title of this blog is “Teenage Angst”. Most of you know I’m not a teenager and have not been one for a very long time, but you see, my son Kiko, well, he’s 18 and had his heart broken recently. His girlfriened, “D”, whom he only started seeing for a short time broke up with him. She told him that she wasn’t ready for a new relationship and asked him if they can be friends.
A little back story before I continue. The girl, D, broke up with her boyfriend to start hanging out with my son and they eventually started dating. Kiko did a whole promposal thing and she said yes. I have the promposal on video.
Everything seemed fine. They were going to go to each other’s prom. I mean, I was confident about this girl, that I even bought him a dinner color dinner jacket for him to wear for her prom. About two weeks ago, my son started to get snippy with me. Little things would set him off. I didn’t pay attention to it because he’s a teenager and I didn’t want to pry.
I was making simple conversations with Kiko and asked him about D and if it was getting serious and he told me that D broke up with him. D told Kiko she wasn’t ready and asked to be friends and Kiko, being a boy, told her that he didn’t want to be friends with her because he really, really liked her. Kiko told me that he was being an jerk to her by not returning or answering any of her text and when he finally decided that it was better to have her in his life as a friend than not at all, she had it. Kiko told me that he finally texted her and she texted back, I’m done.
Kiko said that D was still going to his prom but that she uninvited him to hers. Last week when he was getting things finalized for the prom, she asked him if he had a backup girl to take to the prom, Kiko said he did but that he still wanted to take her. Two days after that conversation, she cancelled. His backup prom date, “J”…well her mom wouldn’t let her go. He finally asked his friend “O”, whom he’s been friends with since 2nd grade. She was ready to get a dress but her boss called and told her she couldn’t have that night off.
Poor Kiko. He asked three girls. He’s still going prom, but he’s taking a girl who is friends with his friend.
Sounds like a John Hughes movie.
Life and what it means…I don’t know what it means. I just try living my life by being nice to people.